I went to
see a mentor/friend of mine the other day.
I respect him and his opinion so much.
We started talking about deal breakers.
He said he could never be married to a smoker. He could handle addiction, mental illness,
etc but he simply couldn’t handle a smoker.
When I have
a client in my chair, and I think they need to change something in order to
enhance their look, I have to choose my words very carefully. There is a difference between respectful
honesty, and a hurtful attack. I hope I
have never made the mistake of giving a client my opinion (when they have asked
for it) and had it come across as anything more than my opinion,
respectfully. After all, I have no idea
what this person sitting in my chair is going through. I have no idea what their day was like before
they sat down in my chair. And, as I
have mentioned before, I have no idea what baggage they carry with them from
the past that I cannot see but is a part of who they are. So, I am real and true, but not hurtful.
There will
always be deal breakers in every relationship.
We may not say what they are to our friends, we may assume they are
understood, but those closest to us know our Achilles heel. Or do they?
Last night,
my daughter received a call from her father.
In order for me to explain, let me give you a little history. We met when I was 13. He was 17.
I was smitten. He was charismatic
and charming. And, my parents couldn’t
stand him. He was the perfect
combination for the exciting start of some dramatic teenage years. We drifted in and out of each other’s lives
until we met up again at college. I HAD
to be with him. The 13 year old in me
still thought at 18 he was superman. The
dream guy. And so started a very short
term marriage two months to the day after my eighteenth birthday. We weren’t married but maybe a year when the
abuse started. He was verbally abusive
at first, then it got physical. My deal
breaker was the day we moved back to Maryland from Utah. Our precious little girl was 4 months old and
we were having a petty argument. He
picked me up and threw me down onto the carpet covered cement floor of the
basement and knocked me out. And, for
me, that was the beginning of the end.
My daughter
has always been the light of this man’s life.
He has treated her like a princess…until recently. He now talks to her the same way he has
talked to me for years. As they talked
last night, I was reminded of the deal breaker.
Once she got off the phone with him (in tears), I called him to “put out
the fire”. Evidently, it didn’t matter
what I had to say. He had an axe to
grind. And so I let him yell for a while
and then said goodbye, never allowing my temper to get the best of me.
I decided it
was time to have the conversation with my beautiful daughter about deal
breakers. After all, she is 16. And, she needs to know now, there are certain
things that are just unacceptable. And,
she has a choice and a voice as to whether she is going to allow herself to be
put in a situation she doesn’t feel is healthy for her. I didn’t say “Don’t talk to your Dad”. I simply said “If anyone talks to you in a
way that upsets you and you feel you don’t deserve, end it”. Deal breaker.
I realize
this has been a theme for me lately. I
believe my angels are trying to get me to reach deep within and figure out what
my deal breakers are and respect myself enough to have boundaries. By doing this, it doesn’t have to mean the
other person is right or wrong, it simply means it doesn’t fit in with what WE
have chosen for our own lives. And,
sadly, sometimes it means reevaluating relationships we hold the closest and
possibly even letting them go. Even if
it is a father. Even if it is a best
friend of many years. Even if it is your
partner. If it is the difference between
being true to yourself and living a life you know isn’t what you want, it’s a
deal breaker. Your angels can’t sing if
you are sitting with someone blowing smoke in your face when that’s your deal
breaker. Your angels can’t sing when
your father or friend is yelling at you.
It’s a deal breaker.
What is your
deal breaker? Do you have people in your
life close to you who push that boundary?
How do you handle it? In my
silence the past few days, I have allowed myself the quiet reflection of
looking at myself. If I am going to be a
better hairapist, mother and friend, I want to make sure I am treating others
with kindness, respect and love. And, if
you are hitting my Achilles heel, knowing it is my Achilles heel, it’s a deal
breaker.
So to my
dear beautiful oldest daughter, I say to you, be true to yourself. Honor the woman you are becoming. Figure out what your deal breakers are NOW so
in the future, no matter who it is, you will know to walk away from any
situation that isn’t for your higher good.
This life is meant to be one of happiness and peace. If it is me or your father or anyone else who
doesn’t respect that, tell them. If the
behavior doesn’t change, love yourself enough to distance yourself from those
who are toxic. Sometimes being you means
being you alone. And you don’t need
others approval to know this. Just chalk
it up to a deal breaker. And believe.