As some of
you may know, I am on a mission to better my personal health. I have struggled for several years now with
an autoimmune disease. The symptoms
range in severity and aren’t constant.
But, I never know when I will be hit with a flare. These flares make work much more
difficult. Sometimes, when I wake up and
feel the pain, I wonder if I am going to be able to continue doing what I love
for much longer. Yikes. So, I joined a gym, hired a personal trainer
and renewed my commitment to myself. I
refuse to allow this “disease” to take me from what I have worked so hard
for. My passion and one of the things I
look forward to doing every day.
Now where in
the heck does a mom of four have time to work out? Yea, I really don’t. But, I need to be a priority. So, I am up at 5:30 am, six days a week to
work on me. During this time, I start on
the treadmill and I usually listen to an audio book. And, if it’s a really good book, I find
myself listening to it in the car and any spare second I can. Currently, I am listening to Iyanla
Vanzant. She is a spiritual advisor,
life coach and author. I have always
wondered how people come to a place where they are able to advise other people
on how to live and be happy. By
listening to her book, I am realizing exactly how this happens. She has been through HELL and back! No joke.
I find myself sitting in the car unable to control the tears as I listen
to her story. Abuse, neglect. A legacy of pain which started well before
she was even born. And, somehow, she has
risen above it all and her angels are singing.
Through her own personal adversity, she helps others recognize and
listen to their angels singing.
I believe
there are two kinds of people. There are
the people who take their struggles and personal adversity and they turn it
into a reflection. A life lesson. And they allow themselves to feel the pain at
the deepest center of themselves. Then,
they turn it over to a source greater than themselves. Pick up, dust their knees off and keep on
going.
Then there
are those who stay on their knees. And,
fixate on the hurt. They find some sort
of comfort in the pain. But is it really
easier to sit in your stuff?
I have a
sweet little 8 month old baby who is trying to learn how to crawl. She scoots backwards on the floor, stuffing
herself uncomfortably under the furniture.
She gets so mad! She will whine
and fuss till someone comes and rescues her.
And then, we sit her in the middle of the floor and start the process
over again. She doesn’t give up. She instinctively keeps on going. Where do we lose this drive? The determination to crawl before we
walk? And more importantly, the belief
in ourselves we CAN do it!
I have a
client who we will call Vicky. Vicky has
been a client of mine for a long time.
She is a beautiful older woman.
Dresses nice. Cute haircut, (of
course). She always comes in looking
poised and put together. Vicky is
miserable. She is on a course of self
destruction. She finds something
upsetting about every aspect of her life.
In her mind, she is a victim in every way. Now, as I have told you before, the hairapist
in me wants to do more than just give her a great cut and color. But, over the years, I have found her misery
has increased and her self worth has decreased.
For a hairapist, this is heartbreaking.
I desperately long to help Vicky.
I want her to hear her angels sing.
I want to tell her it is all in her.
I want to help. But, the reality
is, she is unwilling to see the problem.
And so, Vicky walks around with a great cut, cute clothes and makeup and
a giant chip on her shoulder. Instead of
trying to talk her through it like I used to, I pray for her. I pray she will find peace and I pray she
will at some point hear her angels singing.
Are you
holding yourself back from hearing your angels sing? Are you going through something today, this
week, this month that is so much greater than you it is almost unbearable? Are you going to stuff yourself under the
furniture and whine? Or are you going to
pick yourself up and dust yourself off and try to figure out the life lesson?
I promise
you, your angels are singing. Do you
hear them?
Believe.
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